August 26, 1993!!!!

16 years ago I married my best friend, the one I laugh with cry with love..... j/k I'm sorry if you got married this long ago and had that on your invitations or napkins.... we laughed pretty hard at it and I know I don't have the saying exactly right but you know....Its super cheesy!! Anyway today is our anniversary.... Here is Tom and I on August 26th 1993......we were set up by my Young Women's leader/neighbor and good Friend in August of 1992 (our first date is a pretty funny story I should share sometime!!

Here we are at CEU's Homecoming Dance..

This is the night we got engaged (March 31st), those are some sweet outfits don't you think?

Check out the baby fat in my cheeks... we look like babies anyway compared to now!

Don't you love the puffy sleeves and the head band veil.... I think you can tell exactly who got married within a 2 year time span as me we all had the ridiculously puffy sleeves....maybe we could all pull out our dresses and see who has the biggest sleeves!!

Doesn't Tom look so cute in his little waiter attire??

Anyway Happy Anniversary Tom, I love you, you really our my best friend, I am so lucky to have spent my life with you. My only wish is that we could go back and do it all again!!

Check out the wedding party....everyone is so little/young from left to right; Autumn, Amber, Rebecca, Audrey, my friend Jules, me, Tom, Brian, Josh, Troy and then in the front David, Andrew and Corbin... Andrew and Corbin took all the gifts for me... and they asked me "how much are we getting paid for this? They were all so cute!

Happy Birthday Canyon Luke!!

Today is my little Canny man's 4th birthday......It took us 4 years to get him here and that seemed like it took forever, and now the past 4 years have flown by way too fast.... I say almost everyday I wish I could freeze him just like he is... They say everything great is worth waiting for and anything you have to work really hard for you love and appreciate all the more... This is our Canyon This is my favorite picture he is 3 months old. After 4 miscarriages and over 500 shots to my belly little Canyon was born on a Sunday August 14th 2005. He weighed 7lbs 4oz..... and he was our miracle!!! Below is the hospital picture aren't they always the best??

I was such a nervous wreck the entire pregnancy I just knew someone was missing from our family and I just really wanted a baby I love babies so much... I thought once I got past the scary stage for me (about 18 weeks) that I would relax... oh no I even rented a machine to find his heartbeat that I checked 2 to 5 times everyday... and then at 20 weeks I went in for my ultrasound, they could not find his stomach or bladder we were there for hours and no one could find it, they sent us on our way with a weird name for what our baby had and said come back Monday...we fasted that weekend and prayed he would be ok and when we went in on Monday the second they put the wand on my stomach they could see his stomach and his bladder...we knew our prayers had been answered and we had been given a miracle!! We wanted to be surprised and not know what he was, but it was too obvious during all the ultrasounds ( I had them weekly after 30weeks) so we just told Hayden he wanted a brother so bad!! We told everyone else we didn't know ya we lied.... It was really the best way to do it. We got to announce the surprise when he came, but I got to secretly buy boy stuff...

This is my favorite thing in the world snuggly little babies...

Canyons first Halloween of course his dad bought his costume!!

He like his brother was born with so much hair! and Grandpa Tom was the first to see him also! Commenting on how they had more hair then he did... It is funny to see my two boys with their bald dad as well. Is he not so cute...

Hayden and his brother..

He had the cutest curly hair, we kept it long for a long time because I knew if we cut it the curls would go away... people always said he looked like a little surfer.. Canyon and Olivia

Canyon's first trip to Lake Powell... He loves to dig in the sand!!

He hated this costume so much!! He picked it but did not want to have anything to do with it after..

He loves to swim and could swim everyday... he is pretty brave too, we went to Cowabunga bay the other day and he went down every slide even the big dark ones..

Here he is with his cousin Lila, she is one of his best friends, I love that they go to school and everything together and hope they always stay so close!!

Happy Birthday Canyon Luke!! (cont)

Here he is with Grandma Kaye at his baseball game, he was so funny when he played he would not run from base to base he would just casually walk.... Driving/sleeping on the boat...

Check out our hair!!! (in case you were curious where the boys got their hair) Is this not the greatest picture, all of our faces are so weird.. he likes to ride on the tube as long as I am with him... I love sharing this kind of stuff with my kids!

So cool, didn't mean to post 2 of these...

Canyon and his best buddy Owen...my mom always said your friends will come and go but your brothers and sisters will always be there and will be your friends when you grow up... she didn't say their kids would be my kids best friends too.... we are so lucky to have such close family and that my kids get to be with their cousins so much!! Happy Birthday Canyon I love you more then I could ever say... I always tell him we waited so long for him, or that we wanted him so much..... I hope he knows how much we all love him.... He is the funny man at our house too, always the entertainment, what would church be like without him their to keep us laughing anyway....
It seems every week during the sacrament we get some kind of conversation worth writing down... last week, I asked him what he wanted for his birthday, and he came up with what he wanted right during the sacrament....."a cheeseburger in paradise" really that is what he said!

Wordless Wednesday

What Happens if you take 2????

This last Sunday as we were sitting in Sacrament meeting and the Sacrament was being passed, Canyon took his and then turns to me and says I want more, I tell him we can only have one.... he then asks why I'm hungry....what happens if you take two? I tell him nothing you just can't have two because they need to have enough for everyone.... he says I want two... then he smiles this smile like he has the best idea ever like his brain has turned on and he has it all figured out a very Denis the Menace smile and says to me...Will you get kicked out of church if you take two? Next week I'm taking two are you??

He doesn't love church so much and I guess he has a plan as to how he is going to get out of it!! I laughed pretty hard... He is a thinker.

Two Worlds Collide.....

Ok so I don't know if anyone has ever noticed that I have not ever even mentioned dance on my blog...... let alone post a picture or anything.... which is dumb because it is so much a part of our lives including my kids lives....( I do have a small video of liv at Christmas time but it just mentions I love all the recital and performances including school etc)...... Well last year when I started my blog I was in one of my really feeling guilty phases that I have gone through like crazy over the past 3 years for not spending every waking minute at home in my house with my kids.... I would look at other blogs and actually cry because I didn't have one or because I didn't have the time to have one therefore I was not a good mother. So when I started my blog I had promised myself it would be our life dance free and my kids could be like all the other kids who have moms at home blah blah..... (I never said I was rational). Well this year a few days after the year end recital I was helping at Olivia's school and one of the kids said your always a mom helper and I had this total ahah moment I can do both... This is our life I should record it and share it with others and there is nothing I should feel guilty about!! I spent 7 to 8 years as the Young Women's president or a counselor which takes up a lot of your time and never felt guilty about that......what is really the difference??? I am working with super cute teenage girls whom I truly love.... and then I have all these cute cute little ones I get to work with... I always wanted a whole house full of kids and I get to see these cute little faces each week and hear the funny things they have to say etc it couldn't get better.....In fact when I had one of my miscarriages (the farthest along one that I actually had to deliver the baby) I had a really hard time getting out of a very sad depression/ or funk whatever you want to call it, and what really pulled me out was my first day back teaching these cute little tiny ones, and I was ok after that. The fact is, is that dance really blesses our lives and I should celebrate it instead of acting like I just stay home all the time... It is a family run business, just like people in the olden days who had farms and all the family had to work, or even the Olsen's running their little store they all take a part... not like we want to be the Olsen's, but you know its just something we do as a family together... all of us. I am so lucky to have Tom as my business partner doing all the books and music and scenery etc etc.. Hayden helps with music and stuff too.... and the fact that I get to share this with my girls really is priceless Madz helps me all the time and we spend so much time together doing it... it may not be growing a garden together but none the less it is what we do together and I know it effects the lives of others too... hopefully in a good way, because I have had some great friendships built because of it my girls best friends come from dance and I have witnessed the strength first hand we have in the youth of our world.... They are so capable of doing great things and being great leaders... sorry this has been so long, but this is my journal (another area I am lacking so....) anyway this last recital got rained out, and I was really stressed out well... I looked over and saw a few teenage girls rounding up all the little ones and making a huge circle and saying a prayer together that it could stop raining and that everything would be ok etc... I was so impressed and proud to have them as my students.... anyway if you have managed to read this super long post thank you either way I hope you enjoy a few pictures of this last year... which has been our best year yet the girls won soo many overall awards and we had a lot of fun together.... You can see all the cute little faces of my little friends who I really do love and miss over this summer break (not enough to not take the break though!!) I also hope its ok that from now on I share a little dance in my "family blog" because it is really part of what makes us us!! So I have come out of the closet I work..... my two worlds have collided and we are better for it!!

Wordless Wednesday...